Friday Night 9:30pm cst

Well...Its 9:30. I have knitted the night away. I find it very odd. Around 9, I looked at the clock and thought, damn I have to make lunches etc...then quickly realized, I don't.

Its rather odd. Its nice....but odd. I think I have come to expect to be needed all the time. Does that make sense? Is that why when the kids go away to college there is the empty nest syndrome? Because after 18+ years of service, we are no longer needed on a daily basis? Think about it, we are, servants its not the right term, mom's (damn close) for 18+years of our lives. We do everything for them. From the day they are born till (my mom says never) they move out give or take, we are there for them.

Phone rings from school, forgotten lunch, we jump in the car. Stuck on a math problem, we put down our knitting :) and help. Need a snack for tomorrow, told at 930 at night, we run to Jewel.

We are at their beckon call ( within reason) 24x7 365 days a year, (give or take -3 for me) for 18 years, at least. Wait, I need a calculator....

6570 days
157680 hours of our lives devoted to the care and needs of those little monsters(said with love of course)

Oh and that is per kid mind you. If you have more than one, each day takes a lot longer to get through than the standard 24 hours. Ask any mom!

We get used to this feeling. We dont always like it, we get annoyed at it, we want quiet time, we want to change our names....but we miss it when its gone? What the hell is wrong with me! ROFL.

So, here I sit. I dont have to plan my day tomorrow. I will eventually have to get out of bed to let the dogs out or wind up having to run the steam cleaner over the carpet. I can do what I want for myself. No making breakfast, shouting about shoes(dont cringe or be shocked, we all shout about shoes and socks before school, no matter how perfect you thinkyou are, you have done it), brushing teeth, hanging up the damn towel in the bathroom, what am I, your maid???.

I get to live for myself and no one else tomorrow....I wonder what the kids are doing right now?