I received a letter

Today...I received a letter from a financial group...Here is my response. I x'd out their name cause in todays day and age...you never know who might sue you :) And...being on a fixed income...we couldn't afford to be sued.

Mr. XXXXX

Thank you for your letter dated June 26, 2009.

We continue to face difficult times as Americans. Our country is suffering from a severe economic crisis, millions unemployed, my family being one of them. Our soldiers are fighting thousands of miles from home. We are under the threat of a missile launch on that sacred day, July 4th. Businesses are failing, houses are being foreclosed upon, families face uncertain futures.

And then, I receive you letter titled, What Constitutes an American?

Really? So tell me. How much did xxxxx Financial Group spend to send out letters telling me to remember our fallen and to be proud of our country?

I am glad to say that we do not invest through your company. I would hate to think of my hard earned money being spent by xxxxx Financial Group in sending out letters telling people to be proud of their country. Isn't there a better way to invest the money that your customers entrust to you?

I would understand a letter offering your services...that is simple marketing. This? I have no idea what this is? Is this supposed to be a back door marketing tactic? Am I supposed to read this letter, feel the pride swell in my chest and say, I should invest with xxxxx Financial Group.

Really?

Sincerely

Sharon Miller
A proud American even before your letter told me I should be.

How do I plan my day????

Ok...so its been a month since hubby lost his job. Tomorrow is the last day of school for the kids. I am feeling a sense of dread coming over me. You know how when you are watching a scary movie, the music gets really low and spooky like...that music is playing in my head.....over and over again.

I finally got him to go downstairs and leave us alone. But how do I get him to just plain shut up? No, I am not being mean...well...maybe a little, but its in his best interest to leave us alone.

Does it sound horrible if I say, this is my house...and leave it be? I mean, if I went into his work, back when he worked, and told him he had to do it my way from now on, and I was always there, talking and asking questions, and being a general pain in the butt...he would want to kill me.

Ok...so he is generally here. Not his fault, I get that. But, he's in my kitchen in the morning, leaves toast crumbs on the counter, leaves the toaster out, never puts his dishes in the sink. But is the first one to point of if c1 or c2 does the same thing. He's in the kitchen in the morning saying dont talk to me, I haven't had my first cup of coffee. OK...move the damn coffee pot in your dungeon and stay out of the kitchen. Dont come up and talk or ask questions until you have drank the whole damn pot.

I firmly believe that children should only have one full time parent. My kids heads are spinning with the new rule changes. HELLO!!!. This is my house man. If c3 wants to eat a fruit bar downstairs, go for it. In my opinion, hubby should not speak until 4pm. He should hide in the dungeon until he comes home from work. Period. I love him more than life itself, but damn...get out of my house!

Could you imagine, those of you with hubbies and or not kids, suddenly having your hubby home. Not retirement, not something planned...but just there. I never realized how much his voice can actually annoy the hell out of me. If c3 is downstairs or upstairs, and I am quietly doing what ever it is I am doing, dont come in and start talking to me. I need my quiet time too.

Oh...oh oh
and...people are allowed to speak in the house to eachother when we are talking. Dont get frustrated and say, I cannot talk to you with all of this chatter going on. WHAT??? Really? When you worked in the office, did you tell your co workers to be quiet, cause you were trying to talk to someone?? hehe I like that, I am going to use that one on him next time he says that.

I think the music is getting louder? Now we have to agree on new bedtimes and summer rules. Normally that would be my job, but since he is here, I have to include him. Sigh..and of course he will so not agree with anything I say. My rule is, as long as you are not bugging me you can stay up. You tick me off, its bed time. Max is 10pm. See, he does not yet get how wonderful it is to be awake before the kids!

And another odd thing...I have no idea when to start dinner. It used to be hubby was leaving work, time to start dinner. Now he is always here....when do I start dinner? Sure, its easy to say, at the same time...but its like a continuious weekend now.

Honey, I love you, but this is my house. Leave my rules alone. Speak only when spoken to (heheh) and smile all the time. Dont ask questions, just do, and you are forbidden to install any rules upon the children or the house unless you submit it in writing three days in advance. Allow up to 7 days for processing and final rejection!

(music is definately getting louder)

No reason what so ever....

I have no reason what so ever to be mad at eveyone in my house. Ok..I might have one or two reasons...Like they never leave me alone. I know, I am a mom...they are not supposed to leave me alone. I am supposed to be there for them and love them and cherish them and dote upon them, teach them to grow with love and support.....bullshit. Today I am just mad, and annoyed at everyone.

Which means...stay out of my way! And for any one who says......oh what a horrible mom...give me a break. You have never yelled at your kid for no reason whatsoever?? I highly doubt it.

I am just tired. My routine is shot to hell...I feel lost in my own house. We are working around eachother, working with eachother etc etc..Its just hard. I now understand my moms statement that she cannot clean when my dad is home. I so get it mom!!!

I yelled at my hubby, he yelled at me...I then informed him that it was against the rules of marriage for us both to be pissed off at the same time for no reason and that it was my turn! He's had two weeks to be annoyed at everyone, I get one day and I am gonig to use it to my fullest.

Do not say one moment when I call your name. Get up off your ass and see what I want immediately. (this is how c3 got grounded off of his computer today)

Do not stand there poking me calling my name when I am yelling at another child. Good rule of thumb..do not poke me ever!!!

do not ask a child the same question 100 times over. THIS ANNOYS ME MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF.

When I go out back to the alcove for peace and quiet, do not ask me if we can ride bikes, go to the park, go fishing, go to the store, call a friend, play catch, or set up the pool. PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME FOR ANYTHING! Today I am playing selfish mom.

WE ARE ALL ENTITLED TO PLAY SELFISH MOM.

And today is my day......

I love him tso much, but......

I think I might just kill him.

He had better get a job fast!!!

Yes I am talking about hubby. If I am standing behind you with a drink and a sandwich and ask if I can get to my computer for a few minutes, dont say, sure i'll be off in a second when you dont mean it!!!

Sandwich finished and a laundry basket folded later, he gets up! AAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I know, I must be

patient
supportive
attentive
positive

I can do that if he would go away! :) dont come downstairs in the morning and argue with C1 about his lunch. A zip loc with only lunch meat in it is his lunch. Sure, I could put it between bread, but then he would only throw the bread away.

You are on my domain buddy. Shut up and ask me. ok...yes that wont work. Like when we were kids and our parents told us to keep our mouths closed but then asked us and question and yelled asnwer me! ROFL

Ok

Patience..Yes, the man is on my computer. Yes, I could hook up the other computer in the dungeon, yes, I would never see him, yes it would be quieter because he would not be yelling at all of us to be quiet when he is on the computer. my computer is on the first floor right by the kitchen where everything happens!!

OMG. I sent him to pick up C2 and NC2, NC3 and told him to park on the side street and not to go into the parking lot. he just calls and says he's in the parking lot, now what!!!???!??

I would so let out a stream of cuss words, but since my mom reads this I cannot!

Patience, deep breath..slow deep breath...I swear that man is going to drive me to drink!

*breath*
*breath*
*breath*

Scariest thing I have done in a while.....

Today I did something very scary...I went grocery shopping.

Let me clarify...on Friday, my hubby was laid off of his job. SCARY. I know that 500k people lost their jobs in the month of April alone. DAMN!

So...Here I am grocery shopping...3.29 for a box of triscuits...nope, to expensive.. I felt like crying right there in the middle of the grocery store. I shouldn't have to worry about the cost of a box of crackers!

How is a person supposed to go from security to total and complete insecurity yet still function?

C3 needs socks and shorts. Do I buy them now, or wait? I need a hair cut...do I do it now or wait. My gym shoes have holes in the, do I wait?

My hubby did get a severance..thank god..I know there are thousands of people who have not gotten this. I cannot imagine what they are going through. I never thought I could imagine what people go through during a layoff. Now I do. ITS SCARY.

We always used to say that most people are only a missed paycheck away from living out of their car. And now...we are those people. What if, after 4 months, hubby still cannot find a job? What do we do then?

Most of the news reports people losing their homes, most of them are due to their own stupidity. We have lived here for 12 years. We have been very responsible. We only have one credit card. We are not over our heads in debut..we have debt..started with our car being totaled by someone. (insurance paid us blue book..we had to come up with 11k to buy a used car still)
So we have debt, like most americans..we do not live beyond our means.

We are careful, we pay our bills.....but now....what if we can't? What if he cannot find a job for a year? I have been out of work so long that there is no way I could get anything other than retail. I dont think I would be good for retail. Someone would complain....oh boy...that would not be good..

I have total faith in my husband. I know he will find a job..I know we can provide for our families. but

what if we can't?

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later in the day, after this was posted KLP stopped by and dropped off a box of triscuits with my daugther swearing her to secrecy. Told her to say she found it on the stoop. To bad she didn't know that C2 couldn't keep a secret to save her life. Thanks KLP...Laughed my ass off!

True Love is.....

getting excited with c3 when tells about the pony he rode at a preschool field trip

brushing c2's hair to a bright sheen when you would rather cut it short to save time

throwing together last minute healthy sealed with a kiss kids lunches cause you forgot

putting laundry on hold to make pudding for an afterschool snack...(i'm laundry anal..I hate to stop)

reassuring hubby that he will get a new job because he's mega talented, when all I want to do is cry

telling c1 that his hair looks great, when in reality, it would take a miracle to flatten it out

saying with a broad grin, thank you I loved it, to a mothers day breakfast you would feed to the dogs.

telling c3 that he did a great job putting his laundry away, knowing you are going to have to somehow help him shove that one dresser drawer close

Drinking the lemonade that kids made, with extra sugar, and telling them it tastes great.

Squiriting whip cream in their mouths...just cause its really really funny

Holding c1 when his best friend yells at him and hurts his feelings

taking c2 to a mom and me tea party when i'd rather be doing anything else!!!!!

Helping C3 clean up after an accident at church (to much whip cream)

Letting C1 go...just go...ride around the neighborhood with his friends.

Tucking them all in, some with stories..and then getting up and doing it all over again the next day, and the next day, and the next day....