Scariest thing I have done in a while.....

Today I did something very scary...I went grocery shopping.

Let me clarify...on Friday, my hubby was laid off of his job. SCARY. I know that 500k people lost their jobs in the month of April alone. DAMN!

So...Here I am grocery shopping...3.29 for a box of triscuits...nope, to expensive.. I felt like crying right there in the middle of the grocery store. I shouldn't have to worry about the cost of a box of crackers!

How is a person supposed to go from security to total and complete insecurity yet still function?

C3 needs socks and shorts. Do I buy them now, or wait? I need a hair cut...do I do it now or wait. My gym shoes have holes in the, do I wait?

My hubby did get a severance..thank god..I know there are thousands of people who have not gotten this. I cannot imagine what they are going through. I never thought I could imagine what people go through during a layoff. Now I do. ITS SCARY.

We always used to say that most people are only a missed paycheck away from living out of their car. And now...we are those people. What if, after 4 months, hubby still cannot find a job? What do we do then?

Most of the news reports people losing their homes, most of them are due to their own stupidity. We have lived here for 12 years. We have been very responsible. We only have one credit card. We are not over our heads in debut..we have debt..started with our car being totaled by someone. (insurance paid us blue book..we had to come up with 11k to buy a used car still)
So we have debt, like most americans..we do not live beyond our means.

We are careful, we pay our bills.....but now....what if we can't? What if he cannot find a job for a year? I have been out of work so long that there is no way I could get anything other than retail. I dont think I would be good for retail. Someone would complain....oh boy...that would not be good..

I have total faith in my husband. I know he will find a job..I know we can provide for our families. but

what if we can't?

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later in the day, after this was posted KLP stopped by and dropped off a box of triscuits with my daugther swearing her to secrecy. Told her to say she found it on the stoop. To bad she didn't know that C2 couldn't keep a secret to save her life. Thanks KLP...Laughed my ass off!